winding down II

I keep thinking about how my life in my parents house and as a kid, is coming to end all so quickly. I've merely dreamt about this day. I've always been excited. Always Stoked on the new lessons i would learn. All the choices i'd have, opportunities, fun. Not that i haven't had fun, I mean i've had a blast. My parents have always been really trusting, and i've always ben the guy to take responsibility for my own actions. Yet i've learned that i don't know everything. i learned at a young age. I'm not scared to ask for advice or questions about life. MY parents have always been there, and always able to answer, or help. Now, even after years of excitement, i'm terrified, of being on my own. I've always been comfortable, always surrounded by people that love me, and that i love. In my parents house or not. I have always been surrounded by amazing people. Now i'm going somewhere with so much diversity that not everyone close to me is gonna like me and vice versa. I'm terrified of it. Who knows? maybe i will get along with everyone, but my chances are slim. I guess i'll have friends twenty minutes away, but i know no one that's going where i'll be. Everyones gonna be new. I just have faith, and trust that God will put me in the right place. I know he will. However, i am stoked to learn more about music, and everything that has to do with my major. It's gonna be great. For now, just like every other day, i live one day at a time, I might glance to the future, but try not to worry, yet. But i know, there wont be anything to worry about even in the future, and if there is.. i'll try not to. life's a ride, don't waste your time waiting in line. stop worrying. get out there and make your dreams reality. Screw everything. keep your priorities straight. and go for it.

Winding down.

Ah finally winding down.
After thirteen years of schooling, graduation is creeping up!
I'm excited beyond belief, I didnt really think about hoe this was all gonna exactly happen. But it's finally almost here.
Last few weeks in this town, and with these people.
Crazy thought. I'm ready to move on to my next chapter in life however.
College is gonna be a blast.
I'm ready to finally grow up.

Jazz

Jazz is something that I have just begun to become a huge fan of. I've always enjoyed it. But really only when i saw it on tv r something of the sort. When i went to Atlanta this winter break I got the opportunity to see a live blues/jazz band as i ate some amazing ribs at a small joint in the wonderful ATL. I have never experienced jazz till then i believe. Getting to see their emotion and hearts spilled out on that stage that was more like a really small corner in a small room. It was perfect. I could see how much they loved their instrument and what they were doing. It reminded me of why i loved music, how i could release everything out on to some chords, cymbals and drums. It's so much to comprehend about it I cant explain the feeling at the moment. maybe after a few more hours of listening to miles davis i can come back here and attempt to state how it makes me feel, for now, it's bedtime

Procrastination

Procrastination... Everyone does for the most part.
It's a teenagers worst habit. Most of us do it.
It's so great to do, to just push everything to the side and forget about it and not stress.
Then it comes up....
And everything hits you ten times harder, stress, how hard it is, how much you have to do, and how many assignments you have to do. So we start and finish it all the night before, which makes for a long sleepless night, and a paper half as good as it should have been.
Procrastination is a horrible habit, and the outcome sucks.

Repetition

Lately, I've been thinking about the repetitiveness in my life.
It's crazy how many things i've done over and over again.
In school it seems like every week we do the same thing over and over again.
I understand the repetition is supposed to help you learn understand to help you learn and get something done.
But after a while that tasks looses it's meaning.
Like our economy, We (America) printed so much money that now our money isn't worth much. And now we're in a recession and in debt.
So does repetitiveness help much after a while? i stand in the middle. I know it helps but i need change. just like any great musician will change up their style in an album to keep people wanting to come back and for more. No one wants to buy an album that sounds exactly like the preceding one. Yet in repetition there is something learn and you do become good and efficient at the process.
It is time for change however, tired of doing the same thing over and over again each week with a different title. i know the process. it's boring now. i'm not learning it's just something i do because i have to. mMy hearts not in it. It's time for change don't ya think?

Foooood!

So.. in case you don't know me.. I freaking love food.
Favorite thing in the world for sure.
All of it! Except fish.
I enjoy making it too! It's a fun thing to do.
Food is definitely in my favorite things to do list.
Just in general it's great.
SOo coool that i'm making a how to make an omelette pamphlet!
I'll give you one if you'd like:)
Would you be interested in buying clothes with my name on it?
Tell me and.... i'll make some and have it for sell at cafe press :)

2/5/10

Well i had a crappy sleep last night but.... i guess thats how it goes.
My Dad has always told me that you can't always make everyone happy.
You can't help everyone do what they want, just can't. If you could there would be no hunger, no hate. There wouldn't be homeless. There's just so much that wouldn't be. Just like there wouldn't be a lot of bad stuff, however, there wouldn't be a lot of good stuff. Sometimes executive decisions have to be made even if they hurt someone. When your working as a group not everyone is perfect. No one's perfect actually. but you gotta make things happen. You need the right people with you that you can mesh together perfectly and make it happen even if you lose some of the most talented people, and sometimes, sadly friends. It's just all about drive. Going in the direction you wanna go in and making it happen. In the end being honest to yourself and not trying to make something happen when you can't all be one just makes for a very hard bumpy road with lots of curves. Always just have your goal in sight, always in mind. Let that encourage you, make, and take you.
I hope you understand what i'm talking about if not... hit me up sometime and i'd love to just talk to you.
-jon